Ceri-ann Jenkins

As my 10k run came to an end after months of build up, I registered back in september/october 2011. I thought I would have this massive rush of self achievement, I was wrong.
I spent months training hard and every step at first was excruciating as torn ligaments in my foot held me back and plagued me throughout training.
I struggled to motivate myself some days, and the stress of raising funds for a charity that is especially close to my heart took its toll, I’ve never really set myself a goal like this one before and anything I did set myself I rarely completed. So that alone should of made me proud.
As I crossed the finish line after 1 hour of constant running without stopping, which i struggled with some days during training, I thought I would feel amazing, instead I felt disappointed don’t get me wrong I was made up the run had gone well and a few runners had asked about the charity I was running for and said they were going to “google” it. This alone made me proud, in the way, if just one out of the 8 or so people that asked actually did google it that’s one more person aware of the cause. Job done.

I felt disappointed because I found the run too easy especially as the last couple of weeks before the run i got lazy and didn’t actually do that much, i feel I should of set my self a longer distance I’m glad I am fitter than I thought, I can’t help but feel a let down to myself in a way. I was expecting to struggle and crossing the finish be this amazing feeling and it wasn’t I feel the 10K distance did not test my ability as the CDH condition tests humans daily I feel I never did the charity, the babies lost, the babies surviving , the parents and other family members who CDH has affected any justice.
I know I should feel proud as many family members and friends are proud of me and I know my niece Rubie-may a CDH survivor will be when she is older and I tell her i did it for her, I think I should have a lot more self belief than I do, maybe my rush of self achievement will come
Over the next few days as I’m still really tired I hope so because it’s the first time I’ve set myself a goal and actually achieved it that’s not for the benefit of myself.

I’m getting extremely bad at blogging its an average of once a fortnight these days trying to remember what’s gone on is a nightmare!

I’m only £28 off my target to raise £300 for CDHUK!!!! So buzzing massive thanks to all crew members family friend freight drivers the use our ship and even complete strangers for sponsoring me!! Still 3weeks and 11 days left of sponsoring too !!!! Can deffinately raise more than I thought!! So happy!!!!!!

http://www.mycharitypage.com/CezzaAJCDHUK

Chicken breast with garlic mushrooms and caramelised shallots, brown rice and broccoli. Is on the menu tonight, cooking a high protein low carb meals for my champ is difficult as white complex carbs (spuds pasta) are all off the menu and brown rice isn’t the most versatile ingredient, love looking after him though,
It’s training camp and cutting weight time again